Interview

Brian has an interview today and I think I'm more nervous than he is!! It's been a wild ride the past few months and with this interview, it could be the start of change. He's still enjoying working for Janus, but we never know how long that will go...and we're particular about how much salary he makes to cover our expenses. I am more than willing to work more hours (especially since Riordan will be going to school full time starting in the fall) but Brian is trying to carry all of the burden on himself.

In these times, we do what we have to do. Brian has been very good with interviews in the past, and I hope he shines in this one.

Prayers would be GREAT!!

Ha! I THOUGHT last week was shitty.

Today, two huge things were happening. My husband was waiting to find out if he still had a job, and my mother went in for a simple procedure that is done every day to women all over the world.

By 11:00, everything changed. Brian has lost his job and my mother's ovary is swollen, with cancerous cells also located in her omentum. They are saying cancer. Throwing the word around without waiting for the biopsy. Now, in the past year, they threw this word at her before, and was wrong. All I can hope for is that they are wrong again. False optimism? Probably. It's all I have until the biopsy comes in on Thursday.

I'm just wrecked today. Tired and pretty much in shock. I'm staying strong because I need to.

I just want to lay down in my bed and cry for a bit.